Cat the Vamp in The Newspaper

I had my first phone interview last weekend with an author from the Metro newspaper, a free local paper that gets printed daily in Vancouver (my city), Toronto, and a few others... (http://www.metronews.ca/) We talked for about ten minutes about my book, me, my inspirations, my theories, vampires (duh), the Vancouver vampire scene, etc... Anyway, today the article came out. I was at a Starbucks at 7:45am gulping back a grande, dark coffee with like 5 sugars and scarfing down a bagel with cream cheese. I found a Metro lying on the counter I was leaning over. My heart almost stopped; I realized the article with ME in it was IN THAT PAPER! AHHHHH! (They're always lying everywhere since they get handed out at skytrain stations, etc...) I had totally forgotten that TODAY was THE day! LOL! I searched frantically for my article, SUPER excited, but couldn't find it... Then I searched harder and found my name at the end of an article. The author used ONE quote from me, which she butchered a bit, but she also mentioned my name, my novel, Cat the Vamp, and the fact that I was published at age 21. Hopefully, people will look me up! ;) The article was about "Otherkin"... a term I JUST learned about today. Anyway, read on for yourself:



After feeling a slight dissapointment, I felt pleased. I was skipping around my workplace... I felt so charged up, and then I felt TOO charged up. My heart started to pound SO hard. My chest was tight and yes, I think I may have had arm pains. From the caffeine. And from a night of drinking before... I've been slamming back coffee to keep awake at work. And I popped a caffeine pill the other day. And well, today, I actually felt like I was going to have a heart attack. I tried to cough, and breathe calmly and whatever... It was scary. So, I'm VOWING to lay off the coffee for a while... and the cigarettes... and the stress. I'm taking the steps necessary for HEALTH AND GROWTH. Wish me luck. Please?

On a more depressing, but personal, note:

I went through a major breakup, but I'll be okay. I know now that this is the time to focus on myself. I finally feel okay on my own. I know I am a whole soul and need no one. Yes, it's nice... it would be nice to have someone, but right now, I don't think I'm ready. I have to do some more "soul-searching" and healing. I've learned that sometimes the right thing is the hardest thing to do... I'm a big believer in positive thinking: whatever frequency you put out into the universe, you get in return kind-of-thing... So why? Why, can one try SO hard to make something work, and have it fail? Because it's meant to fail. For a reason I suppose. And sometimes bad situations are there to teach you a lesson. To be genuine and true to yourself is to make room for positivity in your life. To let go of the negativity. In a way, I guess I'm to blame for all the hurt I feel now. I should have walked away instead of clinging onto something with hate in my heart. Humans are such selfish creatures.

I haven't been alone since I was 17. It's different and it's feels like, well, freedom. At first, it was horrible. I was devastated. Pain is extreme and it feels better than nothing, so I attach myself to it sometimes. I've learnt that that does me no good either. I have myself now and my thoughts and my peace of mind. I've been really enjoying my alone time and using it well. I cherish it now because I have a full-time job. I thought being single would mean tons of free time, but my life has been so busy. I force myself to push harder, to get up and go to work everyday, to go to the gym, to hang out with people, to create, to laugh. At first, it was to keep my mind off him. But now, I'm in such a good routine, I can't stop. It feels good and I will ALWAYS keep pushing for greatness... Not greatness over other people, just greatness within me, for me.

I'm happy I have such amazing friends now. I sincerely feel grateful for the people who care about me. I'm making an effort to really be good to people... to show integrity and love and understanding. I want a clean conscience and a clean mind.

It was my 22nd birthday last weekend. 22 on the 22nd, so my champagne birthday! I rented a a huge party bus! I think it was a success. I got everyone to dress up in stylish, classy dress clothes. I felt happy. Here is me and my best friend, Charlotte:



I feel like I've levelled up! I feel like I've definitely grown, evolved somehow... like I'm just beginning a new and exciting chapter in my life. I feel hopeful, but sometimes, jaded now too. I feel like love just isn't as magical anymore. Maybe one day, it will be. I don't feel like there's ONE person out there for me anymore. I know I'm alone and that the universe is within me, that my "soul mate" is already one with me as we are all from the same source. Maybe it's not a bad thing. Maybe I'm just growing up.

Have a GREAT Halloween!

<3 Christina Martine.